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Here are some testimonies from our last Surrendering the Secret study.  I hope this will encourage you or someone you know who has had or is contemplating abortion.  If you would like to be a part of this study, please call me at 785-234-5545

Surrendering the Secret Testimonies

Before this study I was "okay" with my abortion. Sure every time someone said abortion I could feel the burning from that scarlet "A" on my head. And if we happened to be in attendance on pro-life Sunday that scarlet A got accompanied by a bright spot light letting everyone know that I had committed THAT sin. In my mind, “okay” was as good as I was allowed to be considering what I had done.

When I found out about the Surrendering the Secret study I thought I would just attend so I could help other women feel okay with their abortions, too. I knew that God really loved us and wanted us to be “okay”.

What I learned is that God wants us to be more than “okay” even through the sin of abortion. The journey of this study traveled deep into emotional crevices that I had stuffed away and filed under untouchable.

At the end of the study I found myself feeling lighter and having a closer, more personal connection to God our Father.

I do still want to help other women deal with the aftermath of abortion but not to make them “okay” -- to make them free.

 

Sisters, if you have had an abortion please join me for this amazing journey.

Eryka Bentemen

 

First and foremost, I want to thank God for leading TBC Women’s Ministry to offer this Surrendering the Secret study to women who have carried the secret of abortion and have been in bondage for so many years of their lives.

 

The emotions, the fear of others discovering my guilt-ridden secret, the overwhelming sadness, the anger, the unforgiveness of myself and others had been a part of me for so long that I had accepted that this was God’s punishment because of the choice that I had made.

Stepping out of my “comfort zone” and choosing to take this truly inspirational study has led me onto the path of healing. The healing began when I could actually share my thoughts and feelings with other post abortive women.   It was so helpful in the healing process to hear other women express their feelings and experiences, as well.   This has been a journey of casting off Satan’s lies and replacing those lies with the Truths of our Loving Father. By instilling God’s truths into my heart and soul, there is now rejoicing and celebration!!!  

If you or someone you know has had an abortion, I encourage you to step out of your “comfort zone” and take this journey of healing.  God is a God of love and forgiveness and He does not want you to continue to be shackled in Satan’s bondage.   

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It’s been nearly 37 years since my abortion – a very long time to carry the pain and loss I felt.  But who was there to talk with about this that would understand?  Although I’ve been a Christian for over thirty years and understood about God’s forgiveness, somehow I wasn’t connecting the dots that would help me heal from the guilt, shame and loss that seemed to never leave me.

I first learned of post-abortive Bible studies about four years ago.  So after much debating, dreading and no small amount of fear, I decided to make the call to join in the study.  I had no expectations that there was a real and lasting solution for me in this situation, but I also knew if there were any hope, it would come from God.  The question was, would I understand it or believe it, and could I do it?  At this point in my life I was willing to do anything to stop the painful thoughts.

As a result of the post-abortive studies, and the new supportive friends I made, I’ve learned to identify and forgive persons I didn’t even realize I was angry with for their part in my abortion.  I received a true healing that only God could have given me – a permanent and deep healing.  I know this because now when the subject of abortion comes up, or when young mothers and their babies surround me, or I’m invited to a baby shower, my emotions no longer jump to the top of the charts.  I can remain calm and rational and talk with others about these things.  I no longer look for the exit to escape these situations.

Although I had already participated in post-abortive study in the past, I was glad to see that TBC through Women in the Word was offering one too.  “Surrendering the Secret” was a different study than the one I had done before, so I decided to try this one out.  I’m so glad I did because I found there were more areas I needed healing in.  God was able to take my focus on this devastating situation and turn it on Him and His love for me and the joy I have to look forward to.   I would so highly recommend this study to anyone who has had an abortion, whether it was many years ago or more recently.

My dear loving Jesus has already paid the debt for all my sins and with His forgiveness I can forgive myself also.  When Satan shoots his arrow at me, I will no longer allow them to hit their target, for I have God’s holy weapons to fight back with.  God has set me free from the heavy burden of guilt and shame and has sustained me with His truth.  His truth is what has set me free.  Thank you so much Jesus.

Nancy Lutz